It’s 3 a.m. and I have tried all the usual things in the usual order to induce sleep: 1. passionate and amazing moments with passionate and amazing spouse 2. read boring book 3. surf facebook 4. watch hours of youtube videos. Still I feel no compulsion to crawl back into bed.
They say insomnia is a temporary thing. Avoid caffeine, keep to a routine. Still I am awake and realizing that I’m not avoiding sleep, I’m avoiding life. I’m avoiding life by obsessing over it. I think over and over about how to make it better, instead of accepting what is and what will never be. This too shall pass. I know this. Unfortunately it usually passes about 30 minutes before I am suppose to be awake and ready to start my day.